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- In the beginning . . .
- Torn Between Two Lovers
- Who I Am Becoming – A Young Woman’s Story of Spiritual Awakening
- When the Student Is Ready the Teacher Appears, Really
- The Empyrean Experiment in Hawaii
- Catching the Empyrean Vision
- Our Love Affair with Wisdom
- A Spiritual Pilgrimage
- Our Great Undoing
- Cupid Lives at Our House
- The Way of Community
- Surfing the Waves of Change
- How Much Transformation Can You Squeeze Through a Phone Line?
The movie below was created as an assignment for a digital storytelling program in which participants were to create a short movie about a personal spiritual experience. In fact, it is about an experience I had following one of my early Rebirthing experiences in a hot tub at Theta House.
I had to write the script, select the images and music and record the voice over. It was curiously easy and all consuming for me. You could know me for 50 years and never hear me tell this story. It is so deeply personal, repeating it over and over again would have ruined it for me.
I’m glad I found an artistic way of sharing it that brought new life to the memory of the first time I heard my Soul speak to me. I hope you enjoy it.
Who I Am Becoming
by Layne Cutright
(c) 2003 All Rights Reserved
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October 7th, 2009 at 10:09 am
Hello Layne,
Your art expression of who you are becoming is Beautiful!. You asked for feedback on how listeners/watchers are affected: I felt a beautiful sense of grace even as I have experienced you on teleconferences (Heart to Heart). Also, it remeinded me of a time when a life coach had me do an exercise. Idon’t recall the exercise right now, but the outcome was that this golden figure , me in my wholeness, spoke to me. I can relate to the dichonomy you express…the fearful part of myself with the wise knowing part of myself. Even today I addressed this in a sharing session, prior to this viewing. Finally, I loved the video because it is so hopeful. Sometimes I felt connected to you and noted a parallel journey and similar experiences; sometimes I felt more connected to myself and my own journey; and sometimes I felt like an honored witness to your personal journey. Thank you. I also feel encouraged. As I look to find some artistic forms to express myself in the days ahead, you have given a demonstration of a possible avenue. Thank you for sharing and for offering the opportunity for witnesses/sojourners to respond.
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October 7th, 2009 at 1:25 pm
Your video is beautiful. It stopped me long enough to think of how much has changed in the past 2 years of working with you and Paul. I don’t have your same sense of a future guide. Mine is more a feeling of the me that was always there coming out of the shadow and with a huge smile and saying – hey, here I am, it’s me – and feeling great about that.
Thank you for sharing that there were times of going back and forth on who you were focused on. I wonder about that sometimes – can I hold onto this place where I have come to? Will it continue to move into even better places or will it drop back. At least I know who to turn to and have my ‘toolkit’ to work with if something should pull me back the other way. But for now all is peace and joy.
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October 8th, 2009 at 3:56 pm
Dear Layne,
This is a beautiful, and creative depiction of your upward journey. Initially, my whole being was filled with emotion, and with a mind unwilling to think, I decided to go to bed and make my comments later. Laying in bed, my mind reflected on your movie, in relation to where I am on my journey. In the shadow, I can still see myself as that beautiful child (that I was) at the core of my being; like a beautiful rose that has been hard pressed by thorns around, but still remaining beautiful inside. But there are occasions when I am forced to admit that I am not a perfect being, and like Adam and Eve would like to hide myself, being much too disappointed in myself to ask for forgiveness. In this thread of thought I went off to sleep and found myself in your very large, beautiful magnificient home. There were 2 sides to your home which could be accessed on either side by a bridge. Under the bridge which was also part of your home, was draped with all the colours of the rainbow. I found myself walking along the beautiful rainbow path, and unexpectedly met you on the way, and was very surprised at you calling my name – Daphne. It was evident that we both had met at the pure essence of our being, as you lovingly embraced me. There was a repeat of the same dream, after what appeared to be a lapse of time. It is unusual for me to remember my dreams, which makes me wonder about its significance.
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October 8th, 2009 at 8:30 pm
Both Paul and I were very moved by your writing and it reminded us of how important self forgiveness was in our own process.
The idea that the forgiveness we were seeking could come from ourselves was new to us, but we decied to try it and it worked.
We placed our hands over our hearts, imagining light pouing into our chest and repeated,
“Through the power of Divine Love I now forgive myself for judging myself.”
“Through the power of Divine Love I now forgive myself for not being able to ___________.” We said it for as long as it felt good to say it. and repeated the exercise as often as needed.
Its just one of the things we did to forgive ourselves. There are others we can teach you.
It’s wierd all the irrational guilt we need to forgive ourselves for. Give it a shot and let us know how it works for you.
I hope you keep having sweet dreams of all your desires fulfilled.
Layne
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October 10th, 2009 at 5:13 am
Dearest Layne, After watching your movie again.. I am reminded of how very many times you have been my very special support person and of how you have helped me to also redirect to ‘true north’. You have been my personal guardian angel from day one when we met. The reminder.. the re-inspiration has come from your beautiful self-expression via your movie to once again focus on MY ‘true north’ at a time when, once again, I am in frequent need of wise direction. Thank you sweet sister for so often tenderly holding my wee soul in your trustworthy hands. I love you deeply. Aloha Pumehana… Ardyth
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October 25th, 2009 at 11:00 pm
Dearet Ardyth,
It has been a pleasure and a privilege.
xo,
Layne
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November 3rd, 2009 at 6:09 pm
Dear Layne, Thank you for sharing, I’m 72 years old and the video got me thinking about how my future self shows herself to me and how do I hear her voice so I will be awake to this aspect of myself. I have worked on my childhood patterns for years and still the old they show up sometimes and when they do, I do my best to remember they are old patterns and have nothing to do with today. Sometimes, they get me, and make my experience of the moment not as good as it can be and then I usually begin to wonder why things are going like they are, then realize what I am doing. So I’m writing to say that even though I’ve been around a time or two, the system still works
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What I would like to learn is to be more receptive to me future self, to recognize her when she is giving me information or a message, even to dialogue with her.
I feel as young as ever at my spirit level, sometimes my physical body can’t do
all it used to do and that is always a surprise. Maybe by the time I grow up I will know my self.
Thank you for the good work your doing on your selves and sharing with the world.
Sincerely, Adriana
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November 4th, 2009 at 3:56 pm
I loved that! I feel so privileged to share your journey and to have been in the presence of that loving, connected, soul-full, wise, warm and always healing Layne. You are such a gift in my life and to the world. You are both become and becoming. XXOO
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November 5th, 2009 at 4:18 pm
Hi Ida Lee,
How nice to hear from you! I’m glad you like it. I would like to do more of this kind of thing. I think it’s a good venue for inspirational, bite-size, edu-tainement pieces.
It was my first effort – I imagine I will get better as I practice.
Big hug to you.
Layne
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November 5th, 2009 at 4:33 pm
Thank you all for your delightful comments.
I still feel that for each of us to discover the ideal way we can get connected to our soul, is one of the most important things we can do in a lifetime. It leads to a soul driven life that is move alive and fulfilling.
It has been interesting for my to discover there are so many different ways for different people.
I have a friend that surfs because he feels more connected to his higher self when he’s out there.
For other people it’s meditation. Otheres dance or music or poetry.
For me it has been breathwork & beauty.
I think beauty is worth looking for. Sometimes it is just a simple choice to slow down and sense it. Maybe its a sound. Or a gesture, or a look or a memory.
Beauty of the mind.
Beauty of the heart.
Beauty of the spirit.
Beauty of the body.
I wonder what your access is to a soulful awareness?
Share here if you like. I think it would be enriching for all.
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